Sometimes you know exactly what to do to make your bad situation better but you cling on to hope that you may eventually in time be the exception to the rule. This hope we hold on to is why we sometimes cant move past an event that isn't going anywhere. It holds us back, giving us....hope.
What is hope though?
According to wikipedia.com (not a reliable source), Hope is the optimistic attitude of the mind based on an expectation of positive outcomes related to events and circumstances in ones life. I tend look at the glass half empty; i'm a pessimist. I was made this way because i hate the word no and after getting used to hearing it, i developed a self shield mechanism to bar myself from ever being disappointed. So, when i don't expect anything to fall through and it does, then i'm pleasantly surprised by it.
I know i should let go. I get this feeling every month when i'm PMSing. But this time i'm not. All the signs are there, it will never happen, just let go. I've been ignoring them but they are so loud now, i cant help but to hear them. So with this i bid you adieu and i hope you find what you are looking for, and I hope i do too.
(this post was meant for a diary entry, however it ended up here)