With all that has happened since 2013, I can say that I'm in much better place emotionally.
No doubt, everyone has their poison of choice when going through depression and the stresses of life and I'm happy to say that I haven't taken up smoking or drinking however, sometimes it does feel like i'm on a spiraling staircase to self destruction because I have no immediate outlet for all the emotions.
But I'm trying to open back up my heart and let down my walls but the slightest resemblance of what led me to this coldest winter and quickly I shut the shutters and lash out once again. I need to be whole again and build back up my confidence and learn how to love myself as I am. I sweat the small stuff too much and its very easy to drift back into that dark period of my life. But I refuse to go back there and so I will eliminate everything that poses a threat. I can only hope for the best for the rest of the year.
I'm trying, really I am.